Okay a little bit of an over-reaction in the last post.
I'm sorry. The first major 'thing' I've failed in 3 or so years... and I am stubborn and competitive and hate failing, especially when I know I tried my best.
Fact is, I get to do a supplementary exam so I should be thankful. And I am.
The damage is done, my eyes hurt from 2 hours straight crying, my head hurts from trying to think of what I want to do in my life... but truth is, THIS is what I want to do.
It is merely an abstacle and I will get through it.
On another note, thankyou those 2 men in my life who helped me individually... keeping my partially sane.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
off track - again.
I really am a useless piece of absolute fucking shit.
Just when I finally felt like I was getting myself sorted I get an email to sit a fucking supplementary exam.
HOW WHY WHAT THE FUCK.
I know in my self that I tried my absolute hardest and I can't do any better.
I'm so fucking useless I really just wish something really bad would happen to me so that I can just avoid this whole fucking situation.
I'm useless and I can't do any better.
I need to let all this out, my face is wet from my tears and ah fucking hell I don't even want to go back to uni, I'm not smart enough, I don't deserve to be there and at the moment I don't want to be there.
Just when I finally felt like I was getting myself sorted I get an email to sit a fucking supplementary exam.
HOW WHY WHAT THE FUCK.
I know in my self that I tried my absolute hardest and I can't do any better.
I'm so fucking useless I really just wish something really bad would happen to me so that I can just avoid this whole fucking situation.
I'm useless and I can't do any better.
I need to let all this out, my face is wet from my tears and ah fucking hell I don't even want to go back to uni, I'm not smart enough, I don't deserve to be there and at the moment I don't want to be there.
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